Do yourself a favor…. a letter to myself

Dear Tamie,

Do yourself a favor. Please stop the mindless eating and meaningless stress in your life. You know you feel much better when you eat healthy, right?! When you take care of your body you feel energized, refreshed, and ready to take on the world! When you treat yourself like you have been by imbibing in chocolate, simple carbs, and soda you feel like a bag of garbage being dragged down the road. I think that this week long migraine you have had would make you see just what you are doing to your body! Yes, I will give you some credit. You have been relentlessly practicing Yoga which absolutely improves your mood and decrease stress but it isn’t enough to have only one area of your life on track. You need to nourish your mind, body, and spirit.

Be relentless Tamie! Don’t give up! Wasn’t it Love for yourself that got you this far!? Don’t let your 100 pound loss be in vain. Please I beg of you, Love yourself enough to treat yourself right! I hate seeing you this way. I hate that you feel bad. If you love yourself you can conquer the world! don’t lose sight of your goal. Find what motivates you again. Even if it is simply making every single choice based on LOVE.

Don’t get complacent my dear. Just because you feel 1,000 times better than you did 3 years ago doesn’t mean you can’t improve at all. You can always strive to do better, to be your best self. I know you. I am you. What motivated you came to fruition and now you feel like there isn’t more to work for. There are goals that you still want to accomplish. Let the love you feel for yourself motivate you enough to accomplish them. Walk a half marathon, complete a triathlon, and run a 5k in turnout gear. Let LOVE be your strongest motivator. Your effort thus far is not meaningless. You have come this far. Now fly to to the moon!

Love,

Yourself

Whilst writing this it reminded me of a previous blog post that I wrote about loving myself. I went back and read it again after I finished writing. If you are interested in reading it you can find it here.

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via Daily Prompt: Meaningless

Vivid and bright

Today I read something that really struck a cord with me. I’m currently reading”Strong looks better naked” by Khloe Kardashian. In her chapter about making the best of everything Khloe shares her Mantra “The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts and I want to paint my soul in vivid and bright colors”.  I love this! I want my soul to be bright and vivid! If every choice I make is with positive thoughts and every action is out of love won’t that nurture my soul? If I do things that make me and everyone around myself happy will it not help my soul be bright and vivid? In a way I have been making small steps towards living this mantra without even knowing it!

I could feel my soul getting black and ugly. I was lashing out at people I care about. The weight of my responsibilities and obligations was getting to be too  much for me. I was not carving out time in this life to take care of myself. After being particularly nasty to my husband one day I realized that I needed to make a change. I started doing yoga. I don’t go to a studio or have an instructor. I simply watch YouTube videos at home. Performing this small act and taking some time for myself has done an incredible amount to lift my spirits. I feel alive and grounded. I don’t feel like a “firecracker with a short fuse” like I have been called in the past. I can’t speak for my husband but I don’t feel like I am releasing all of my stresses out on him anymore either.

I’m hoping my Yoga practice will hold me over until the weather warms and I can start my training outdoors. Once outside training starts I want to keep up my practice. I feel most connected to myself when doing Yoga. Maybe I will even graduate to leaving my home and doing Yoga in a studio someday! We will see….. I tend to be a little flighty like a bird. Bouncing from idea to idea.

“You cannot always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside” -Wayne Dyer

 

The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts (3)

 

Current Stats: Reading 100 quiet moments, weight 266, trying to eat mostly paleo, doing yoga everyday, missing my boys, working too much.

Today 2/8/17

Breakfast- 3 eggs

Lunch- Big salad with homemade blueberry vinaigrette

Supper- Farmer’s Market crockpot mexican chicken soup

Snack- 2 hard bolied eggs and 1 apple

Current status: tired, 262 lbs, still reading relentless spirit, excited about the sit/stand workstation my manager got me, excited for the next 2 days off, going to be busy busy busy helping my mom, feeling a little overwhelmed, wanting to do Yoga tomorrow morning, thinking about summer races

Psalm 73:26

    My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.

Master of Destruction

Children are Masters of Destruction. Let’s just start with the house destruction, belongings destruction, body destruction, and sleep destruction. You name it, they destroy it. My son may be a master of destruction but he is the absolute best thing to ever happen to me. Because of this I am willing to overlook the fact that he threw another hairbrush of mine in the toilet this morning.

What’s harder to get past is the fact that before bed last night I decided that I was going to get up 30 minutes earlier than normal (which is well before he usually gets up) and do a 10 minute yoga video. That’s right folks all I wanted was 10 minutes. Ten minutes to wake up and get some movement in before I had to work. Anyone that knows me can tell you that I don’t get up earlier than I have to, but I decided that I can sacrifice a small and only a small amount of sleep to get myself closer to my goals. Last night I got my yoga mat set up, was wearing Pajamas I could do yoga in, and had my yoga video picked out. Getting myself set up to do this was  BIG accomplishment. Then at 5:50 this morning my child started to cry….. and BOOM my morning plan was out the window. Ten Minutes before my alarm was set to go off so that I could yoga my way into a great day.

You might ask….. “Well Tamie why didn’t you just do it anyway?”

And I might say…. “You don’t know my son.”

Any time I attempt to work out at home he will be on top of me in seconds. If i’m doing push ups he will lay under me and cry. Try to do Zumba or dance, he stands at my feet and cries. Yes I could hold him and do anything cardio but I definitely would not be able to do Yoga. Cardio right after I wake up is out of the question for me. I end up feeling all pukey and nobody likes to have that feeling first thing in the morning. I will forgive him for this of course and keep loving my crazy destructive baby Goobs.  All I can do is try again tomorrow.

P.S. Despite the exceptionally early wake up he was a very happy little boy this morning. Which makes this Mamma very happy.

Besides who could be mad at this face

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Ephesians 4:2  Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.

Yoga

This morning I attended my first ever Yoga class at 8 in the morning. I am so not a morning person but I have to say this was the best way ever to start my day! Class was at Core Quest Yoga and Spa in Wautoma, WI. Cathy the owner is amazing! I have honestly nothing bad to say about Yoga. I did way better than I thought I would and Cathy even commented on how well I did for my first time. The atmosphere was calming. The moves at time were tough but I did them and felt amazing afterwards. Everyone should try Core quest’s function & Flow Yoga! Okay I’m done raving about yoga now. This evening I also went for a 2 mile walk in the woods. I didn’t use my headphones or listen to anything other than nature. I looked at the trees and all my surroundings. I feel completely centered today. I honestly wish every single day could be like this.

Click HERE for Corequest Yoga and Spas website

 

10449949_10205037374679811_5682981796278391075_nA picture I took on my walk today.

And I’m closing with……

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Get Moving

Today it occurred to me that although I am active on my days off of work I am not very active while I am working. This desk job has me sitting for 9 hours a day. I have suggested a desk that raises so that I can stand sometimes and that was shot down. My solution is that every hour I will get up and move around for 5 minutes. I may do stretches, jog in place, some body weight exercises, walk laps around the ER, etc. If I am able to do this I will be adding 45 minutes of activity to my days.

I’ve just been feeling so blah lately. The weather is changing and I’m super busy. I can only work out on the weekends which leaves me feeling cranky. In theory this increase in activity should help how I’m feeling emotionally and physically. I planned on starting this today but of course I was too busy to do it. Friday….. No excuses.

On another note I get to try my first yoga class tomorrow at Core Quest Yoga and Spa in Wautoma, WI. I’m so crazy excited! I will let you all know how it goes. I’m trying new things and this is just the start!