1. A standard by which something can be measured or judged:

I ran my first race of the season. I almost quit because of someone’s actions. I have never had this feeling while running a race before. Normally I get smiles, waves, and encouragement. This time 2 people almost ruined for me something I love so much.

Let me give you the low down but first a disclaimer: I was in no way planning on winning this race. Anyway I was using my C25K app to run/walk my way through the 5k because let me be honest I am nowhere near ready to actually run a whole 5k. The race started out well. I was feeling really good. Then I noticed what was happening. I was being used as a benchmark. Which is okay. I get it. I’ve done it myself. I follow someone and know that I am doing well if I can keep pace with them. These 2 were not discrete at all and what was most concerning was that it was an older woman and a tween. They would be walking behind me while I was running.  Then when I would get to my walk portion they would run just past me, turn around, look at me, jab their elbows at each other, then smile and/or laugh. What kind of example is being set for the young girl with this woman?!!?

When I noticed this I almost started crying, turned around, and headed back to the start. I felt so defeated. I was being used as a benchmarker! These people were saying to themselves “As long as we can stay ahead of HER we are doing alright”. Let me tell you this made me feel like all the work I’ve done to be healthy was worthless. If people were still looking at me as somebody easily beaten what had I really accomplished? This is where my Mantra comes into the story. I am the storm! I started repeating this over and over. Something in my mind shifted. I was going to make this hard for them. I AM stronger than them. I AM stronger than I give myself credit for. Nothing can stop me. C25K be damned! I took off! I ran until I felt like my lead was big enough that I wouldn’t have to experience their mockery anymore! Then I ran a little more each time the app told me to stop running and start walking.  Needless to say I eventually lost sight of them and honestly don’t know where they finished in relation to me.

Please people if you are participating in a race don’t do this. A benchmark is okay. Looking back constantly and making someone feel inferior is not!

Needless to say I hit a PR. Best 5k time to date at 46:16. Only 20 seconds faster than my previous PR but I am only 2 weeks into C25K and did not run all winter. Based on this my time should improve greatly over the summer.

I just want to share how far I have come. Mostly because just like seeing things in photos makes it more real, Seeing things in writing also does.

5k Times

58:25 9/2014

51:02 10/2014

50:29 7/2016

46:36 8/2016

The first timed event I ever participated in was a 1 mile run. I don’t even know what my time was. I was so discouraged.

Today I finished 89 out of 113. This may not seem great but to me this is amazing! Thank you for helping me realize my potential mocking people! I really appreciate it!

BeFunky Collage

The time in this photo is not accurate. I didn’t stop my timer right away. I was chip timed so 46:16 was the official time.

It was a great event otherwise and I even won a gift card from the course (not for winning).

  1. If you want to know more about this great event let me know!

And no one was watching

Sometimes it takes doing something you’ve never done before to realize how far you’ve come.

Sometimes it takes doing something you’ve never done before to realize how far you’ve come.

Tonight while I was waiting for people to arrive at fit camp. I decided to get in a little extra work out myself because my little man was with Grandma and Grandpa. I started running laps around the gym and I was able to run 23 laps without stopping! I’ve never been able to do this even when I was in school. I was may be able to run one lap around the gym and then I had to stop.

I started tonight by just deciding I was going to run until people showed up. No one showed up so I just kept running! I think I can maybe run a mile without stopping, I’ve never done that before. Hopefully if the weather isn’t too awful my baby goobs and I can test that theory tomorrow. I will keep you all updated!

I’m really just so happy that I decided to workout tonight even when no one was there. For a brief moment I thought about picking up my baby and just going home and snuggling him. Then I told myself I needed to do it…. And I did!

Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

Cairn Box

cairnFor months I’ve been interested in getting a “box”. I’m sure at some point in time you have heard of them. There is everything from Runner’s crate to Bark Box. I’ve really looked into them and tried to find the one I would get the most use out of because it fit my lifestyle best. I also wanted one that was affordable and wouldn’t take very much out of my monthly budget. I came across Cairn adventure box and decided to treat myself for my birthday. Cairn is 25$ a month and geared towards a person that loves fitness, the outdoors, and adventure. The best thing about this box is that you can customize your favorite activities. My top activities were Stand up paddle board, Running, hiking, hunting/archery, and snow shoeing.

In the box was a Daily Tube, Pocket Bellows, 12″ Better Band, Lip Balm, and a Blueberry Phivebar.  The pocket bellows is a ancient fire starter meant to get fire burning quicker. The better band is a fancy bungee cord which I have plans for with my paddle board. All good lips is the chap-stick that came in the box. It’s oxybenzone and gluten free. It is comprised of a bunch of organic essential oils. The smell of it is very natural I would say Lemon and Lavender shine through. I will be using this as my go to chap-stick through the winter (if I don’t lose it of course). I haven’t tried the PhiveBar yet but it looks like the ingredients are all organic. The daily tube  has a beautiful nature scene on it and is head gear that can be used for your face, neck and, head. It’s hard to see it in my box so here is a better picture of it. The value of these products are $46.50.


Overall I am really pleased with this box. It seems like a great deal. Not too expensive and the products add up to more than I paid. I’m going to get next months box too and see if I get more goodies I like. If I love those too I may continue my subscription. If you think you may want to try this  you can Get your Cairn box here:


**I’m in no way associated with Cairn. Being paid to review their products. Nor am I receiving the products free or a discount on them. Merely have a passion for adventure, fitness, the outdoors, and want to share what I discover with you.

Wake Up Call

How did this happen? I’ve gained 15 lbs?! What am I going to do?

This morning I woke up and stepped on the scale. What I saw literally made my heart sink into my stomach. That (currently) EVIL scale told me that I have gained 15 lbs!! Yes you read that right 15 lbs!! No wonder my clothes are starting to feel a little snug! This is what happens when a cheat meal, turns into a cheat week, which turns into weeks, then months! Weeks of eating like crap and not keeping up with running has really caught up to me. This is why when people say “one bad meal won’t destroy your progress” that isn’t always true! Yes, one bad meal won’t destroy your progress but when you struggle with food addiction once you say yes to one bad meal it can start you spiraling out of control. So I have devised a plan. I am making a list of promises to myself and I will keep them!


  1. I will not make excuses!
  2. I will drink 2 shakes a day, 2 healthy snacks, and 1 healthy meal each and every day.
  3. I will do 15 minutes of physical activity each day: Of those days, 3 will be running, 1 will be strength training and the remainder will be whatever I choose.
  4. I will do 15 minutes of personal development each day.
  5. I will drink a minimum of 64 oz of water daily.
  6. I will track every single thing I put into my mouth.
  7. I will only go into the break room at work for supplies and to eat my meals.
  8. I will live like an athlete in training!

I am going to post these promises at my desk at work, my car, my refrigerator, and my bathroom mirror.

I’ve gotten myself this far and I can’t believe I let myself back slide! Today is the first day of the rest of my life!


Today I was not successful at keeping my promises. Tomorrow I WILL be. No excuses!