Vivid and bright

Today I read something that really struck a cord with me. I’m currently reading”Strong looks better naked” by Khloe Kardashian. In her chapter about making the best of everything Khloe shares her Mantra “The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts and I want to paint my soul in vivid and bright colors”.  I love this! I want my soul to be bright and vivid! If every choice I make is with positive thoughts and every action is out of love won’t that nurture my soul? If I do things that make me and everyone around myself happy will it not help my soul be bright and vivid? In a way I have been making small steps towards living this mantra without even knowing it!

I could feel my soul getting black and ugly. I was lashing out at people I care about. The weight of my responsibilities and obligations was getting to be too  much for me. I was not carving out time in this life to take care of myself. After being particularly nasty to my husband one day I realized that I needed to make a change. I started doing yoga. I don’t go to a studio or have an instructor. I simply watch YouTube videos at home. Performing this small act and taking some time for myself has done an incredible amount to lift my spirits. I feel alive and grounded. I don’t feel like a “firecracker with a short fuse” like I have been called in the past. I can’t speak for my husband but I don’t feel like I am releasing all of my stresses out on him anymore either.

I’m hoping my Yoga practice will hold me over until the weather warms and I can start my training outdoors. Once outside training starts I want to keep up my practice. I feel most connected to myself when doing Yoga. Maybe I will even graduate to leaving my home and doing Yoga in a studio someday! We will see….. I tend to be a little flighty like a bird. Bouncing from idea to idea.

“You cannot always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside” -Wayne Dyer


The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts (3)


Current Stats: Reading 100 quiet moments, weight 266, trying to eat mostly paleo, doing yoga everyday, missing my boys, working too much.



I made it 7 days with no chocolate. When I had chocolate it felt like a choice I made rather than an overwhelming need for it. Since then when I have chocolate it’s a choice. I’m not driven but some internal craving. I feel like this was a successful experiment. It feels great to be past this compulsion!

My next challenge to myself….”how many days in a row can you work out?”

Starting Tuesday I scheduled my workouts just like my job. It’s on my google calendar and everything. I’m going to experiment with what time of day works best for me. It will need to be a time of day that I am always home so early morning or late night.  After this week’s experiment I will know a time and stick to it as long as I can. Let’s see how long I can make it this time.


Current Stats: finished reading “Surfacing”, weight 268, baby Goobs and I are both sick, trying to quit smoking, very tired, working too much, spread pretty thing, feeling determined, wishing I had more time

You can read about my no chocolate challenge here

Master of Destruction

Children are Masters of Destruction. Let’s just start with the house destruction, belongings destruction, body destruction, and sleep destruction. You name it, they destroy it. My son may be a master of destruction but he is the absolute best thing to ever happen to me. Because of this I am willing to overlook the fact that he threw another hairbrush of mine in the toilet this morning.

What’s harder to get past is the fact that before bed last night I decided that I was going to get up 30 minutes earlier than normal (which is well before he usually gets up) and do a 10 minute yoga video. That’s right folks all I wanted was 10 minutes. Ten minutes to wake up and get some movement in before I had to work. Anyone that knows me can tell you that I don’t get up earlier than I have to, but I decided that I can sacrifice a small and only a small amount of sleep to get myself closer to my goals. Last night I got my yoga mat set up, was wearing Pajamas I could do yoga in, and had my yoga video picked out. Getting myself set up to do this was  BIG accomplishment. Then at 5:50 this morning my child started to cry….. and BOOM my morning plan was out the window. Ten Minutes before my alarm was set to go off so that I could yoga my way into a great day.

You might ask….. “Well Tamie why didn’t you just do it anyway?”

And I might say…. “You don’t know my son.”

Any time I attempt to work out at home he will be on top of me in seconds. If i’m doing push ups he will lay under me and cry. Try to do Zumba or dance, he stands at my feet and cries. Yes I could hold him and do anything cardio but I definitely would not be able to do Yoga. Cardio right after I wake up is out of the question for me. I end up feeling all pukey and nobody likes to have that feeling first thing in the morning. I will forgive him for this of course and keep loving my crazy destructive baby Goobs.  All I can do is try again tomorrow.

P.S. Despite the exceptionally early wake up he was a very happy little boy this morning. Which makes this Mamma very happy.

Besides who could be mad at this face



Ephesians 4:2  Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.

Cairn Box

cairnFor months I’ve been interested in getting a “box”. I’m sure at some point in time you have heard of them. There is everything from Runner’s crate to Bark Box. I’ve really looked into them and tried to find the one I would get the most use out of because it fit my lifestyle best. I also wanted one that was affordable and wouldn’t take very much out of my monthly budget. I came across Cairn adventure box and decided to treat myself for my birthday. Cairn is 25$ a month and geared towards a person that loves fitness, the outdoors, and adventure. The best thing about this box is that you can customize your favorite activities. My top activities were Stand up paddle board, Running, hiking, hunting/archery, and snow shoeing.

In the box was a Daily Tube, Pocket Bellows, 12″ Better Band, Lip Balm, and a Blueberry Phivebar.  The pocket bellows is a ancient fire starter meant to get fire burning quicker. The better band is a fancy bungee cord which I have plans for with my paddle board. All good lips is the chap-stick that came in the box. It’s oxybenzone and gluten free. It is comprised of a bunch of organic essential oils. The smell of it is very natural I would say Lemon and Lavender shine through. I will be using this as my go to chap-stick through the winter (if I don’t lose it of course). I haven’t tried the PhiveBar yet but it looks like the ingredients are all organic. The daily tube  has a beautiful nature scene on it and is head gear that can be used for your face, neck and, head. It’s hard to see it in my box so here is a better picture of it. The value of these products are $46.50.


Overall I am really pleased with this box. It seems like a great deal. Not too expensive and the products add up to more than I paid. I’m going to get next months box too and see if I get more goodies I like. If I love those too I may continue my subscription. If you think you may want to try this  you can Get your Cairn box here:


**I’m in no way associated with Cairn. Being paid to review their products. Nor am I receiving the products free or a discount on them. Merely have a passion for adventure, fitness, the outdoors, and want to share what I discover with you.

Back to Basics

It’s been awhile, huh? Life has been a little crazy. I got focused on things that I really don’t think are that important. I lost sight of my journey and my passion. I let others lead me in a direction that takes me away from the root of my passion…. helping others achieve great results like I have gotten and continuing my own journey. I got so busy with things that don’t matter I didn’t have time for anything else.

I love helping other’s shed weight and get healthy. Which is why I plan on pursing Personal trainer certification. I have also started doing Fit camps on Tuesday nights which are free workouts for all fitness levels. My first one was successful. I kicked my own butt and man I am paying for it today! Can’t wait to see more people come so we can create a community of support for each other.

This summer I ran two 5k’s and since the last one I haven’t gotten back out running. This feels awful for me because I really have fallen in love with running. I know it isn’t for everyone but it really is for me. My own journey has taken a back seat but no longer.

Moral of the story I’m getting back to the basics. Doing what I love. Part of that includes recording my journey. You will be seeing more posts from me and frankly I am really sad that I didn’t write this summer. I did so much and had so much to say about it. With no outlet for those musings, or so I thought. Here I go again….


Proverbs 4:25

Let your eyes look directly forward, and your gaze be straight before you.


It’s Monday so today’s post is going to focus on two key words. Motivation and More. Both these things are weighing on my mind lately.

Motivation first. The last few months I have lacked so much motivation. I did so well to begin with that when my weight stopped coming off as fast, I got discouraged and was lackadaisical about my health even though I said I was trying, I really wasn’t. I have a week left before school starts back up, the holidays are over, and my gumption is back! I have worked out every day for 6 days. I feel like I am kicking butt (fingers crossed that the scale reflects that). My diet has been great too! Now to keep this up once school starts again. The key is to find non scale victories to keep me motivated. I’m training for the warrior dash and although I’m not as strong as someday I will be I feel stronger than I ever have before. I am getting such a fulfilling feeling from the work outs that I have done. It is amazing! My go to song at the gym now is….

I have no idea why but the song feels so uplifting to me. I feel like I can do absolutely anything I put my mind too.

Do any of you have anything Motivational to share? I worked out last night and was able to do 7 crunches on the Captain’s chair!

Now for the “More” part of this Monday. Lately I feel like I just need something more. I can’t quite place my finger on what it is exactly that I need. Maybe its many things that I need more of. I need More physical activity. Being cooped up in a room with no windows and sitting at a computer all day is wearing on me.

I need to get the things I love and the people I love to mesh more together. This new way of life isn’t a fad for me. I LOVE the way I feel. Healthy living is my life now and I want everything in my world focused around that.

I think basically for the first time in my life I expect more from my life. I believe that I can do great things and I want MORE. More adventure, excitement, warmth, joy, and life experiences.

Motivation Monday

Social media seems to have days designated to everything. Thursdays are Throwback Thursday, Flashblack Friday’s, Woman crush Wednesday’s but today I want to talk about motivational monday. Every day (at least when I’m not crazy busy) I comb the internet for motivating pictures, articles, or quotes. Today this quote is what motivates me to keep trying to be a better me. Even on tough days, the fact that I started is my greatest accomplishment and the fact that I keep going is what matters.

Hope this motivates someone else today! Have a great motivational Monday!