Vivid and bright

Today I read something that really struck a cord with me. I’m currently reading”Strong looks better naked” by Khloe Kardashian. In her chapter about making the best of everything Khloe shares her Mantra “The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts and I want to paint my soul in vivid and bright colors”.  I love this! I want my soul to be bright and vivid! If every choice I make is with positive thoughts and every action is out of love won’t that nurture my soul? If I do things that make me and everyone around myself happy will it not help my soul be bright and vivid? In a way I have been making small steps towards living this mantra without even knowing it!

I could feel my soul getting black and ugly. I was lashing out at people I care about. The weight of my responsibilities and obligations was getting to be too  much for me. I was not carving out time in this life to take care of myself. After being particularly nasty to my husband one day I realized that I needed to make a change. I started doing yoga. I don’t go to a studio or have an instructor. I simply watch YouTube videos at home. Performing this small act and taking some time for myself has done an incredible amount to lift my spirits. I feel alive and grounded. I don’t feel like a “firecracker with a short fuse” like I have been called in the past. I can’t speak for my husband but I don’t feel like I am releasing all of my stresses out on him anymore either.

I’m hoping my Yoga practice will hold me over until the weather warms and I can start my training outdoors. Once outside training starts I want to keep up my practice. I feel most connected to myself when doing Yoga. Maybe I will even graduate to leaving my home and doing Yoga in a studio someday! We will see….. I tend to be a little flighty like a bird. Bouncing from idea to idea.

“You cannot always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside” -Wayne Dyer


The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts (3)


Current Stats: Reading 100 quiet moments, weight 266, trying to eat mostly paleo, doing yoga everyday, missing my boys, working too much.


Flavors, rest days, and the future

I just finished reading the memoir “It was me all along” By Andie Mitchell. It was a wonderful book. Reading about someone who has already experienced some of the things that I am was eye-opening. One of the things that the author wrote about was making food special and taking the time to really enjoy what you are eating. This has really stuck with me. I have realized that in the rush of life the speed in which I eat is crazy. I rush my meals at work because we are busy, at home I rush so that I can get back to what I was doing, and on school days I rush because I’m on the road. I want to start taking time to savor my meals, to really taste the flavors, and appreciate the food I make. This will give my body time to “fill” up. I don’t want to only see food as fuel for my body but I want to really experience my food. Time to slow down and love the food I choose.

On another note, finally after 10 days in a row of exercise took 2 rest days. I miss my physical activity and can’t wait until I can work out tomorrow. Tomorrow I will be leading some women in a workout. I’m so excited! This is what I want to do with my life (and being an RN)! I feel like things are lining up and falling in place. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for me!