Vivid and bright

Today I read something that really struck a cord with me. I’m currently reading”Strong looks better naked” by Khloe Kardashian. In her chapter about making the best of everything Khloe shares her Mantra “The soul becomes dyed with the color of our thoughts and I want to paint my soul in vivid and bright colors”.  I love this! I want my soul to be bright and vivid! If every choice I make is with positive thoughts and every action is out of love won’t that nurture my soul? If I do things that make me and everyone around myself happy will it not help my soul be bright and vivid? In a way I have been making small steps towards living this mantra without even knowing it!

I could feel my soul getting black and ugly. I was lashing out at people I care about. The weight of my responsibilities and obligations was getting to be too  much for me. I was not carving out time in this life to take care of myself. After being particularly nasty to my husband one day I realized that I needed to make a change. I started doing yoga. I don’t go to a studio or have an instructor. I simply watch YouTube videos at home. Performing this small act and taking some time for myself has done an incredible amount to lift my spirits. I feel alive and grounded. I don’t feel like a “firecracker with a short fuse” like I have been called in the past. I can’t speak for my husband but I don’t feel like I am releasing all of my stresses out on him anymore either.

I’m hoping my Yoga practice will hold me over until the weather warms and I can start my training outdoors. Once outside training starts I want to keep up my practice. I feel most connected to myself when doing Yoga. Maybe I will even graduate to leaving my home and doing Yoga in a studio someday! We will see….. I tend to be a little flighty like a bird. Bouncing from idea to idea.

“You cannot always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside” -Wayne Dyer


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Current Stats: Reading 100 quiet moments, weight 266, trying to eat mostly paleo, doing yoga everyday, missing my boys, working too much.


How Do You Want to be Remembered

How are we defined? Our roles? Our traits? How do YOU want to be remembered?

First let me say that I have discovered the joy of podcasts. Yesterday was really windy and rainy so my running plan fell to the wayside. I baked and cleaned instead. While I was working around the house I was listening to podcasts ( score for getting personal development completed). Let me just say I found a real gem! During one of the episodes someone posed the question…. “How do you want to be remembered”. I really started thinking about this.

How DO I want to be remembered??

People will remember me as a wife, mother, daughter, friend, employee, etc. But do I really want people to only think about my roles? No. Of course I love those roles and am proud of them but there is more to me. My roles are not the only thing that define me.

I want to be remembered…..

…as someone who was kind, loving, and inspiring. Someone who tried new things and worked towards her goals. A woman who was strong in her faith. Who helped others. A woman who always strived to learn and grow.

Those are the things I want to be remembered for.

Not my roles. Not my worldly possessions. But by my character traits. I want to be remembered as a good person.