Benchmark

benchmark

noun

  1. A standard by which something can be measured or judged:
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I ran my first race of the season. I almost quit because of someone’s actions. I have never had this feeling while running a race before. Normally I get smiles, waves, and encouragement. This time 2 people almost ruined for me something I love so much.

Let me give you the low down but first a disclaimer: I was in no way planning on winning this race. Anyway I was using my C25K app to run/walk my way through the 5k because let me be honest I am nowhere near ready to actually run a whole 5k. The race started out well. I was feeling really good. Then I noticed what was happening. I was being used as a benchmark. Which is okay. I get it. I’ve done it myself. I follow someone and know that I am doing well if I can keep pace with them. These 2 were not discrete at all and what was most concerning was that it was an older woman and a tween. They would be walking behind me while I was running.  Then when I would get to my walk portion they would run just past me, turn around, look at me, jab their elbows at each other, then smile and/or laugh. What kind of example is being set for the young girl with this woman?!!?

When I noticed this I almost started crying, turned around, and headed back to the start. I felt so defeated. I was being used as a benchmarker! These people were saying to themselves “As long as we can stay ahead of HER we are doing alright”. Let me tell you this made me feel like all the work I’ve done to be healthy was worthless. If people were still looking at me as somebody easily beaten what had I really accomplished? This is where my Mantra comes into the story. I am the storm! I started repeating this over and over. Something in my mind shifted. I was going to make this hard for them. I AM stronger than them. I AM stronger than I give myself credit for. Nothing can stop me. C25K be damned! I took off! I ran until I felt like my lead was big enough that I wouldn’t have to experience their mockery anymore! Then I ran a little more each time the app told me to stop running and start walking.  Needless to say I eventually lost sight of them and honestly don’t know where they finished in relation to me.

Please people if you are participating in a race don’t do this. A benchmark is okay. Looking back constantly and making someone feel inferior is not!

Needless to say I hit a PR. Best 5k time to date at 46:16. Only 20 seconds faster than my previous PR but I am only 2 weeks into C25K and did not run all winter. Based on this my time should improve greatly over the summer.

I just want to share how far I have come. Mostly because just like seeing things in photos makes it more real, Seeing things in writing also does.

5k Times

58:25 9/2014

51:02 10/2014

50:29 7/2016

46:36 8/2016

The first timed event I ever participated in was a 1 mile run. I don’t even know what my time was. I was so discouraged.

Today I finished 89 out of 113. This may not seem great but to me this is amazing! Thank you for helping me realize my potential mocking people! I really appreciate it!

BeFunky Collage

The time in this photo is not accurate. I didn’t stop my timer right away. I was chip timed so 46:16 was the official time.

It was a great event otherwise and I even won a gift card from the course (not for winning).

  1. If you want to know more about this great event let me know!

Stick with what you know

Saturday after watching my weight climb up to 273 lbs I realized that I needed to stop experimenting and go back to what I know works. I’ve tried paleo, whole30, just watching what I eat, and Primal blueprint. Previously I had huge success using Herbalife, counting calories, and exercising so that’s what I’m back to. So far it’s going really well. I’m doing my 1 week weigh in on Saturday. I will update going forward.

On another note….. I’m planning a weekend camping trip “up Nort” for this summer and I am super excited!

Current Stats: 271.4 lbs, reading The Turn, feeling excited, waiting for it to be warmer

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Do yourself a favor…. a letter to myself

Dear Tamie,

Do yourself a favor. Please stop the mindless eating and meaningless stress in your life. You know you feel much better when you eat healthy, right?! When you take care of your body you feel energized, refreshed, and ready to take on the world! When you treat yourself like you have been by imbibing in chocolate, simple carbs, and soda you feel like a bag of garbage being dragged down the road. I think that this week long migraine you have had would make you see just what you are doing to your body! Yes, I will give you some credit. You have been relentlessly practicing Yoga which absolutely improves your mood and decrease stress but it isn’t enough to have only one area of your life on track. You need to nourish your mind, body, and spirit.

Be relentless Tamie! Don’t give up! Wasn’t it Love for yourself that got you this far!? Don’t let your 100 pound loss be in vain. Please I beg of you, Love yourself enough to treat yourself right! I hate seeing you this way. I hate that you feel bad. If you love yourself you can conquer the world! don’t lose sight of your goal. Find what motivates you again. Even if it is simply making every single choice based on LOVE.

Don’t get complacent my dear. Just because you feel 1,000 times better than you did 3 years ago doesn’t mean you can’t improve at all. You can always strive to do better, to be your best self. I know you. I am you. What motivated you came to fruition and now you feel like there isn’t more to work for. There are goals that you still want to accomplish. Let the love you feel for yourself motivate you enough to accomplish them. Walk a half marathon, complete a triathlon, and run a 5k in turnout gear. Let LOVE be your strongest motivator. Your effort thus far is not meaningless. You have come this far. Now fly to to the moon!

Love,

Yourself

Whilst writing this it reminded me of a previous blog post that I wrote about loving myself. I went back and read it again after I finished writing. If you are interested in reading it you can find it here.

life on the sea

 

 

via Daily Prompt: Meaningless

Today 2/8/17

Breakfast- 3 eggs

Lunch- Big salad with homemade blueberry vinaigrette

Supper- Farmer’s Market crockpot mexican chicken soup

Snack- 2 hard bolied eggs and 1 apple

Current status: tired, 262 lbs, still reading relentless spirit, excited about the sit/stand workstation my manager got me, excited for the next 2 days off, going to be busy busy busy helping my mom, feeling a little overwhelmed, wanting to do Yoga tomorrow morning, thinking about summer races

Psalm 73:26

    My flesh and my heart may fail,
    but God is the strength of my heart
    and my portion forever.

Whole30 Day 3

Day 3 is more of the same.

Breakfast- Veggie egg casserole

Lunch- Mexicali venison Skillet with Avocado

Dinner- Crockpot Venison Tenderloin with apples and onions. Served with Green beans

Snack- Raspberries and Cashews

If you have read my previous posts you can see that I’m eating a lot of leftovers. I evaluated my life before I started Whole30 to see what I could do to ensure I was successful. Since I am a mom to a toddler and work a full time job (12 hour shifts) I knew that I would not be able to make fancy meals everyday. I needed to keep this SIMPLE. For the last several months I have planned Bi-weekly menus to avoid extra trips to the grocery store. This saves me time and money. When planning my menu for Whole30 I tried to plan just like I was previously. My meals would need to be simple, easy, and fast. Add in that it needed to be compliant and provide leftovers for several meals. Left overs guarantee that I always have food and won’t be caught off guard by not knowing what I will have for lunch that day. I also made sure to get extra fruits and veggies when I shopped just in case one of the meals I planned didn’t materialize.

I’ve managed to not be overwhelmed because of all my planning. I have heard that can be a possibility when doing a Whole30. So I am on day 3 which isn’t very far in but I figure sharing anything I learn can’t hurt.

via Daily Prompt: Overwhelming

Whole 30 Day 2

More clean eating and whole foods today

Breakfast- Veggie egg casserole

Lunch- Salad from salad Bar. Homemade Dressing (See recipe here)

Dinner- Compliant Venison meatballs over Zoodles (carrot, summer squash, Zucchini)

Feeling: tired and my head has hurt all day

 

 

 

 

 

via Daily Prompt: Clean

What’s that about accountability?

So I have been doing weight loss challenges continuously since I started my journey (except when I was pregnant of course). About 5 months post-partum I decided to start coaching challenges which resulted in me not being a participant. I need the accountability that these challenges provided me. I have decided that with the next one that starts on Oct. 12th I will doing weekly weigh ins as well. I will post a picture on Facebook of the scale every week. If this doesn’t hold me accountable I honestly don’t know what will!

These challenges are all online if anyone wants to join and follow my progress!

Click here to Check out the SCHOCKtober Slim down Challenge!

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