make a thorough or dramatic change in the form, appearance, or character oftrans·for·ma·tion
a thorough or dramatic change in form or appearanceAlthough I have made a dramatic transformation already, I am still transforming. I have not finished. I’m teetering in a middle, dead space and it’s hard to balance. I’ve been through so much yet I’m not complete. Most days I look back see how far I’ve come and get complacent. That should be fuel. You always hear “Only look back to see how far you’ve come”. True but we should always be looking ahead. So what we have a long way to go? Look forward and see the distance shrinking.I have accomplished so much but there is so much I want to do! What do you do when you become complacent with how far you’ve come? My gut wrenches with my lack of progress but really who is to blame but myself?
Although this blog has been a great outlet for me, I feel like fake. I’m spewing the same “I have to” crap over and over. This will be my last entry until I get my self in check and can report progress again. I want to share useful information. Not the same old I’m failing this is what I am going to do. Only action and results. I will still share things on the Facebook page but no more writing until I can feel proud of myself again. Until I have a reason to write. Until I feel a spark and inspiration.